Haha, 2 years since last entry. 2 years since i broke up with my 1st girlfriend. This journal thing started out as a way to connect to her to the things she likes, but has a way of relieving the crap thats building up inside my head. I know no one will read this (at least the people concerned), but that might be for the best so i wont have to worry about the things i type.

Broke up with my 1st girlfriend in a very bad way and i regret that. i think she really did care alot for me but i wasnt able to give that same amount back. My excuses were she was too old in the sense that she's more mature, she was my sister's friend first and whatnot, but i feel that those arent the main reasons.

I told myself afterwards that i would try my best to make it work the next time someone gets interested in me. I was able to do things beyond the call of duty for her. Drove/commuted more than an hour many times a week just to see her, got even on one knee when i asked her. But things never work the way you hope it would. And i eventually found out how it feels to be the one not recieving the love, like the tables were turned on me. I broke it off when after i confronted her she said she couldnt say something that she doesnt mean. i wouldve done anything for her, but she was undecided. Looking back at the 6months we were "together" are a lot of clues on how she never actually said she even liked me. I must be on a loosing streak of breaking off relationships.

I must be very very vain, part of me wants others to read this especially the girls in my life but another part says i should move on. In a few years, i would be reading this again and i hope i would be thinking on how "young and stupid" i was, assuming that im not stupid by then.

Yey! papuri just ended and my job as emcee/dancer/rapper is finally done. Althou i could have done the rapping better. They said i was too fast X_X well im not a rapper anyway....

Now to pressing matters. SCHOOL WORK. I have a make-up written practical exam and a experiment to do tommorrow. And i still need to do the pre-lab of that exp. And i just got a new game, and i cant play it because i have lots of work to do!!!

Well a nice thing happened recently, some of my guild's problems was solved by just making the 2 people in conflict talk it out at YM conference. But now that the Rf message boards are down, i cant check my election to be board moderator.... kumakapal nanaman mukha ko ^^

Water slide paper. The paper you use to print images on and stick them to your skin. Popularly known as temporary tattoos. Perfect for facial tattoos. Also possible to print out the cursed seal of sasuke with ease and can also be repeated until you run out of money to buy the paper. I heard its kinda expensive for paper... sites are selling 5 sheets for 20$ 5 SHEETS ONLY!!! im better of using that 60 peso kiddie face paint..

Friend started smoking regularly, am in the process of trying to convince her to do otherwise. My parents are the founders of NAM, National Asthma Movement. I know too well the effects of smoking since i was a baby. Considering the thing i did last friday, i thinking smoking is worse in the long-run.

Im screwed... I realized last night " ?Where's my bag?" and poof i forgot to get my bag and file case from my friends last friday when i was wasted....

And now im here panicing on what to do. I didnt get to read my reading because the readings were in the file case. im f**ked up.

I never thought id say this... I've lost my appetite for gaming.... i just dont feel like playing 24/7 as of now. It may have been caused by my "incident" last friday.

Lots of ideas again for prop making. If i keep up this interest i may even be able to make costumes for next years UPSCA papuri. Sadly my tendency to forget what i thought of ran over the stuff i was thinging of. I should really have pen and paper on had all the time for brainstorming notes.

I feel that i should study... WHAT AM I THINKING!!? i never feel like studying!!! alcohol apparently has the effect of making the person become very conscious of all the stuff around them... and make them uber guilty about it.

Must read eng11 readings... before mam mooney gets disappointed again...

Ive done crap in my life and this could be in my top 10 (yes ive done some things that are much much worse)

I wasted myself at 4 in the afternoon. 5 bottles of strong ice. I only realized how strong it was until i was at the toilet puking my guts out.

Im am soo sorry for stacey and the others that took care of us.... nag miscalculate kami ng inom... damn the late effects of beer.

after bringing me to my house i woke up at 3am without headache and stomachache. but was very thirsty and hungry. All my lunch went down the toilet.

Day began like any day in UP. Classes to attend and classes to skip. I lost to whom i consider my "rival" in fencing today (but he doesnt know that so hush). It sucks and im a little upset about it, even my coached noticed it. I was reaaalllyy careless in my defense. I got too cocky from winning my past 2 fights and thus the boastful will lose. But with losing comes the opportunity to learn something new. Ive learned to try not having a superiority complex when fighting ^^

So many plans for props for cosplaying again. I've always had very ambitious plans in building but more often than not i get into builder's block (is there such a thing?!?). There are just some props that cant be made with my limited knowledge. But recently with my new awakening, ive dreamt the path. The path that leads to my dreams of making the pencil-sword!!!

If anyone remembers Culture Crash magazine, they'll know what im talking about. The main weapon of IQ40, the ninja mascot of CC. I want to make THAT!

Possible Material combination to construct the pencil-sword
a) Polyurethane Foam. Mold the entire shape of the pencil section from the foam and attach a PVC pipe as handle.
b) Foam, chipboard, plaster
c) WOOD!

oh well, i started writing about 9pm, and with the numerous chatting in YM, ive lost the feel to finish this. So next time ill complete my prop making list

Mata ne!

After silently reading LJs of my friends for the past decade ( better to say decade than give a specific number) ive finally made my own. Not really because ive had a stroke of inspiration to write but to be able to reply to the posts of millie-chan. She and yas has revived the cosplayer in me.
A feat that has negated the 4 years of brainwashing my family did to me saying that cosplaying is for kids.

Last i cosplayed ( i mean a real cosplay event, not just a school holloween party) was 2001. Anime Quest 2001 at the Megatrade Hall in Megamall. the 1st major anime con in the country and i was able to be part of it.

To all guys! its hard to cosplay when your a guy, assuming you're cosplaying male characters and not female ones ( damn you male sailor tenshi group!! you have forever imprinted my mind with nightmaares of guys in sailor outfits and stocking!).

Looking for a male character with:
a)short brown/black hair
b)hair that does not STAND by some unknown force of nature, aka the goku look also can be mistaken as the "after getting out of bed look"
c)doesnt look like a bishi!!! not all men look like girls! this is why i like ninja's, you cant see their face.

With just A) its already difficult to find one. Girls have it easy in cosplaying....

And not suprisingly with those difficult to find traits, i managed not to find a single one for my 1st cosplay: Vincent Valentine from FF7. Long silver hair, hair standing, crimson red eyes ( yes i tried looking for colored contacts) and looks like a girl if you take out the armor and guns. Oh yeah i got it bad...

Outcome: a Short-haired vincent with brown eyes.
not a very pretty sight. But hey, its about the playing than the costume ^^ I had my circle of cosplayer back then. Abbie, Bunny, Pixie and such. Bunny made my metal arm prop for free as long as i provide the aluminum and rivets, he cosplayed as trunks but without the purple hair. Abbie cosplayed the main girl from Karekano, she looked so much like that girl!!! Abbie was thin and had shoulder lenght straight hair. Perfect sync of player and costume.

I remember chasing the Doraemon mascot around the trade hall along with a heihei of YYH. Me gun, he sword = sushi doraemon.

Tis all for now since i dont wanna run out of material with just the 1st entry. Will somehow fiddle with the layout, im getting practice with the forums of my Guild in RFO ^^.

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